AGH!

Okay this is the thing, I just can't keep up. It is getting increasingly harder for me to do anything. I can't finish up at work, I have to have someone help me, I can't get things done at home, I get too tired. I can't even effectively spend time with my children I get too sleepy and bitchy with them, I run out of patience. You know, I never noticed how much of a bitch I am when I am pregnant until this pregnancy. I just didn't want to be that woman. You know, the one that treats her husband like crap, and makes her children unhappy, the one that doesn't have a nice thing to say. I can't help it though, my emotions fly all over the map. One minute I am thrilled and happy to have such a wonderful man in my life, then I begin to cry because I am sure he will leave me at any second, even though he loves me completely just as much as I love him. It is an unreasonable thought, but it takes me atleast six hours to realize that. I really don't remember being this way when I was pregnant with Maia and Maddie, but Steve would never have told me the way David does, he didn't care to talk to me as much. David and I share so much, we are more that lovers and friends. We are confidants, we share so much. Hopes and dreams, and in the end we try to comfort one another in times of need.
I am just glad it has not been this bad the entire pregnancy, and well I only have a mere 37 days left until D day, which means I can go back to normal, slightly. All I will be then is fatigued from lack of sleep. It will be okay, I will have six weeks to work it all out, and I have two prior births to learn from, hehehe!
All in all I am incredibly happy. I have a wonderful man in my life to raise this child with, and he cares for the girls as well. I have support from family and friends here, and back home. I shouldn't worry so much, but that one of the symptoms of pregnancy, worry, and I do plenty of it.
Damn, just lost my train of thought, I guess I can't type as quickly as I write, because there was so much I wanted to write, I know I barely scratched the surface. I guess I will write more later. Have a great week everyone, and I will write more later, in the near future.